I think I might be getting old.
Some very exciting news this week as friends of mine had a beautiful baby girl. She really is gorgeous! I can't wait to meet her in person. I have to say, the outpouring of love for this little one by friends of these friends has touched me deeply. I was sobbing a bit as I read them. I can imagine what my friends were feeling!
All of this has put into relief my life, as large life events tend to. I cannot help but look at these friends and wonder if I'll ever find anything so well-matched... That isn't my flatmate. I mean, I love my flatmate, but I don't love my flatmate.
You can stop with the 'you're married' jokes now, please.
Anyway, I wonder if I will ever become someone's spouse. Will I ever be a parent, and if so, would I make a good parent? I wonder if I should have made different choices in life. Perhaps then I'd have what everyone else around me seems to have - their own homes, loving spouses, families...
It's not that I'm sad about my life by any stretch of the imagination. I'm actually really happy. But I do wonder what it would be like for me if my life had gone differently.
That's my deep thought for the day.
I now have to go make sure all the formatting is correct for my books, solicit a few more book reviews, mend some hand wraps, write and paint.
It's a full day.
I do have a question, though. What do you imagine you'd be doing right now if your life had turned out differently?