So naturally, I crashed hard. By the time Friday rolled around, I was battling a panic attack, which, thankfully, never actually became a full-blown attack. I had to cancel all of my plans, not least of all because OC Transpo took two hours to get me home from teaching Friday night, and so had to cancel Saturday morning's plans so I could do the things I was supposed to do Friday night.
To the surprise of no one who has been utterly overwhelmed, none of it got done. I went to bed Friday night, and did not wake until almost 2pm Saturday afternoon. Then, because I just couldn't do much else, I binged YouTube videos, and then slept more.
Saturday, I also got a huge reaction to something on my neck. I have an awful outbreak there, which I'm currently trying to hide with too much make-up. I have no idea what I could have reacted to, and am fairly convinced that it's all related to being so thoroughly overwhelmed.
Yesterday was much better. I actually did things. Not the things I was supposed to, mind, but I was functioning. I practiced my guitar for the first time in too long, and even managed to go out for an extra long run. The day was cool enough for a long run in the afternoon. While I ran a little slower than usual, I felt pretty good during the run, and better after.
It didn't really take care of the feeling of being overwhelmed, but it was at least something. Nothing I needed to do got done this weekend. I'm pissed about it, but there's nothing for it, I suppose. I was utterly unable to function on the weekend.
That does mean, however, that I have my work cut out for me today. I won't be writing today, though I'm itching to. I mean, i won't be writing my manuscript today. I will be writing. I have a blog post due today that will be going out tomorrow. Ordinarily, I'd have brainstormed a topic, but I'm dry. I've got nothing. I'm angry about that too, but I know from experience that it's a side-effect of being overwhelmed. My mind ceases to function. Most of what I have to do today is come up with a topic, and then write it.
I also have to write a Sassy Review for Shadow of Mordor, which will happen as soon as the article for Black Gate Magazine is written.
Right, I should stop procrastinating and get to it. Hope you're all having a fantastic day.