So, jealousy. The awful J-word. Yesterday, I received a small sharp pang of it. And I'm glad I did. Do you want to know why?
Well, because it means a good friend and very deserving person may just have a publishing deal in the bag. Granted, he is cautiously optimistic and a little reticent to celebrate just yet (in a way that I will never be. I specialise in premature celebrations!), as it's still a bit up in the air.
But whatever! I'm celebrating for him! It's wonderful news, and I'm so excited for him.
And I'm also jealous.
Here's the thing about jealousy. It's perfectly normal and natural. I'm not embarrassed to be jealous of my friend. The only time I should be embarrassed is if I let my jealousy control my behaviour towards him. If I start getting snippy and mean, then I ought to be embarrassed. If I start withdrawing from his company because his being reminds me of my own shortcomings, then I ought to be embarrassed. If I go so far as to try and sabotage his chances of success, then I ought to be thoroughly embarrassed.
I ought to be embarrassed not because I was/am jealous, but because doing any of the above would make me a horrible, petty, small human being.
So, people languishing under any kind of profession jealousy, you hereby have permission to let yourself feel as jealous as you are inclined to feel.
Just don't be a whiny, petty dick about it.
So any way, I'm really excited for my fried and I really hope it works out. How awesome would that be?
Moving onto me stuff (because it's all about me), I did a fair amount of editing of Human yesterday. I'm starting to come around on it. So far, I haven't yawned once. Go me. There will be more of that today. With luck, I might even get it finished today or tomorrow. Then I can start on Daughters of Britain. So excited to get working on that manuscript.
First though, of course, I must get my Welsh on. I'm really enjoying these lessons, even though I keep making stupid mistakes. And for some reason, I keep mixing up the words cerdded and gwerthu. That's annoying!
To that end, I'm off. Have a wonderful day everyone!