I very nearly defenestrated my computer.
You see, it was once the case that I could take out my frustrations by punching and kicking things for an hour, and losing myself in learning cool new techniques to apply for another hour twice weekly at least. Governmental incompetence and selfish fuckers have ensured that I haven't been able to attend my martial arts classes for months on end.
It's been months too long. My shoulders are hovering around my ears these days, and I have no constructive way to deal with all the energy and vexation.
In the meantime, the Zoom classes are everything to me. I need them. And it was a sign just how badly I do on Tuesday, when the prospect of not being able to attend made me lose my damned mind.
I'm dreaming of returning to class. And I'm also dreaming of having my own house, so I can set up a room to be a martial arts haven for me for when I can't go to class. That last one feels like it will only ever be a dream, but I'm dreaming all the same.
Anyway, there is no real point to this blog post except for maybe this - WEAR YOUR FUCKING MASKS AND (if it's safe for you) GET THE FUCKING VACCINE. I NEED TO GO BACK TO TRAINING OR I WILL LOSE MY DAMNED MIND!