So much for establishing a routine.
In my defence, there's nothing that kills productivity quite like querying. All those emails sent, asking for some random person who is overwhelmed with such requests to read and like my stuff enough to sign me up and help me make a career of writing. It's stressful, exhausting, and, thanks to the inevitable rejections, really, really disheartening. I suppose that when I've exhausted my list of agents I feel I could have a good working relationship with, it'll feel a little less like pulling teeth to write.
Also, I was focussing on my return to training and martial arts, all of which happened in the same week. I feel like I had only the energy to establish one routine at a time, and my physical health (martial arts, weight training and running) won. Also, I've not yet established the routine properly even. The first week is not yet complete, and it can take up to two months to turn this new thing into a habit, where it won't feel like an incredible drag to get up and do the things.
I don't have two months to wait before I start writing again, thank you very much, but I do need to get a start on forming my other habits. I figured I'll pick one up a week... or try to, in any case. Next week should be getting back into writing, but I have a feeling it won't be. Not that I won't try to write, it just won't be the focus of my attempts at forming a new habit.
That'll probably be my early morning, guitar practice. I really want to be able to be good at it, but I won't get there unless I practice, and I have so little time in the day thanks to... every other project I have going on right now. So if I can make it a habit to get up earlier and practice a bit before I start my day, I think that'd do me some good.
Music is not a bad way to start the day, after all, and I do miss making music.
I just wish I was good at it. But I will get good. I will. I just have to force myself to practice.
While writing this week has suffered as I try and pull myself together after the mess that was the holidays, I have managed to go two weeks strength training. Or will have, when tomorrow rolls around. It was so nice to get back to it last week, but the fatigue is setting in this week. I imagine it'll take me another week or so to get used to it, even more so now that martial arts training and my running training have been re-added to the roster.
By the way, any tips for dealing with the fatigue are very welcomed. I've been fighting fatigue since I can remember. It is, alas, one of the symptoms of my depression, and so probably won't be fully rid of it. All I can do is manage it, and I'm up for tips and tricks.
This is boring stuff, I'm sorry, but it's what's happening with me now.
For now, I'm going to go stare at a blank page for a bit.