Yesterday was a great day for me. I wrote my blog post, wrote the article for Black Gate Magazine, queried five agents as per my schedule, and got in a French lesson. Also, the Mukluks I ordered using the money I got for Christmas, and I love them very much. All told, it was a great day.
Last night was terrible for me. I've been having low level anxiety for a few days now, but last night it was bad. Really bad. Like, my chest was hurting and I couldn't sleep bad. I've not had an anxiety attack in a long, long time, and I had forgotten how to cope.
I tossed and turned, and got frustrated. I tried all kinds of things, save going out for a run, but only because it was cold out. Eventually, well past the time I should have been asleep, I finally put on some nice music so I could give my mind something to latch on to and focus on instead of all the physical symptoms of the anxiety attack. It seemed to have worked. I finally slept.
It did mean, however, that I didn't have the energy to get up at the time I'm supposed to in order to practice my guitar. So already my attempt at trying to build a schedule is wrecked. I'll try again, of course, tomorrow, but I'm also getting sick, so there's that issue.
Today, as a result, is going to be rough. Really rough. I'm already tired. I can't focus because of it. And my anxiety is still present, sitting in the back of my mind, being troublesome.
I was really hoping to settle in and get some writing done. I promised myself that I'd finish the second book of my Avalon series soon, and damn it, I intend to.
So, on that note, I think I'll sign off here, feeling sorr for myself.
Hope you all have a btter day!