It's generally a safe bet that when I'm not blogging, it's because I'm struggling with my mental health. This was, in fact, the case these past few days.
One of the hallmarks of my struggle is incredible fatigue. Usually, I write a blog post the night before (now that I don't have any part of my mornings free), and schedule it for the next morning. I've not managed to do that in a long while. I was too exhausted. I'd come home, lie down in bed, and not move again until the next morning except for to maybe shower and try to take care of myself.
It's not good. It wasn't good.
But it was the best I could manage.
I'm a little better today, and hopefully I'll be getting better for a little while yet. It seems my spirals are coming in much more frequently and for a lot longer than they had been previously.
I am taking steps, however, to try and mitigate it.
I've recently started meditation. I cannot do it on my own, so I've opted for guided meditations available for free on YouTube. I always opt for the ones that are designed not just to calm, but to uplift. It has helped a little. I aimed to do them daily, but... well... like most things of late, that hasn't happened. The trying is what's important, right?
Anyway, that's where I am right now, mentally.
As for my other things, writing continues, and I've written well past the 150 000 word mark (as evidenced by yesterday's post), and my brain has started to take the draft and fix it up already. There will be more words to add, and I think it might be a lot more episodic than it currently is. So there will likely be a lot of filler words that I will have to nix, too.
This one is vastly different from anything I've written before - not the genre, but the structure.
Editing this one is going to be hell, is what I'm saying.
I'm still researching photographers for my official author headshots. I've not made much progress, but I have given myself a deadline of the end of this week to make the appropriate enquiries, and I hope to have a decision made by the end of the month.
I've started streaming a new game. Immortals: Fenyx Rising is a really cute, fun game, and though I've only done one streaming session, I'm enjoying it immensely. The art style is lovely, and the writing is hilarious. Join me Friday evenings live on Twitch for that.
And that's where I am in the rest of my life.
I hope you're all well. Giant hugs to those of you who are struggling. It's not easy, and you're doing brilliantly, even when it feels like you're not. Right, there are things for me to do now.