CAN*CON PANIC

Good morning, Readers!

This was nabbed from an article on modernfarmer.com, which explains how it's possible that a chicken can live without its head.

First of all, let me apologise for not posting yesterday.  I had intended to post my Can*Con schedule, as it is now live, but it was not a good weekend for being a human for me.  I had also intended to get started on a video editing project I'm doing for a friend, and I had thought I'd do an extra long weekend live stream.  I couldn't get out of bed.  The computer was too far away.  I had no interest in picking up my controller.  All I could manage was to snooze and occasionally catch up on my favourite show on YouTube (Qi, for the record - a fantastic British comedy panel show that is full of awesome little factoids).

Depression is terrible, and this session has been particularly bad.

I'm not out of the woods today, though I am at work and doing things.  I have to be if I want to get paid.  Besides which, I have a tonne of things that need doing in preparation for Can*Con, which is fast approaching.  First I need to arrange a ride for myself and all my nonsense on Friday so I can set up my table in the dealer's room.  I also have to get my shite together as I'm meeting the editor guest of honour for a one on one chat (synopsis, first page... that kind of shite), I have to sort out my Saturday, which is promising to be a hellish day of bouncing between obligations, and then arrange a way to get all my nonsense back home at the end of the convention on Sunday.

This is all nonsense I should have figured out by now.  I could use the reason that I've not been well for a while now, but it really is just an excuse.  I mean, I haven't been well, but I'm so annoyed at myself over it all.  Anyway.

There are things that must get done before Friday.  I have three days to do it.  It's cool.  I've got this.

Ordinarily, Can*Con fills me with excitement.  I get to hang out with the coolest people I know, geek out over the coolest things I know (books, duh), and learn a tonne of really awesome things (Can*Con this year has an awesome science learning track, and I can't be more thrilled).  I'm finding it difficult to get excited.  I'm overwhelmed, and in the middle of a depressive episode that's going on a few weeks now, and I'm just not in the right head space.

That said, I actually am looking forward to Can*Con, even if I'm in a funk currently.  There is no convention that I love nearly as much.  I just have to pull myself together a bit.  Getting my To-Do list under control will help a lot.

I'm off to do that.  In the meantime, here is a clip from the afore-mentioned Qi that never fails to make me cry with laughter.  Enjoy!

Ciao!