Anyway, yesterday I was writing and one of my characters only just accepted that they are probably facing something supernatural on the other side of the battlefield. It's 70 000 words into the story. Is it too late for the character to finally accept that their world is scarier than they thought? I feel I'll have to go back and write in more of their disbelief.
In my defence, or theirs, they have been raised to consider all faiths but their own as barbaric lies. Things like necromancy are simply non-existent. Magic doesn't exist. Mages were merely frauds, tricking the people in an effort to retain their considerable power because the dominant religion freed the people from their conniving grasps.
There was a point to this tale...
Oh yeah! So, 70 000 words in might be a little late for this kind of resolution, but it is also a six book series (for now. That might change). It also isn't the resolution of the book, either.
Also, I'm feeling kind of lost with this one. I may have to do another rewrite. I'm not sure. It was all so clear when I started out, and now I've hit the "swampy" middle part of writing. It's that part in the book where writing feels like you're wading through molasses, and it's unpleasant and difficult and you're not really sure you're getting anywhere. I dislike this part of the writing process. I only hope it means that my writing will come out stronger on the other side.
But GODS I hate writing right now.
I love the story.
I love the characters,
I have a manic need to get this story out of my head and onto paper (albeit digital). But writing right now sucks balls. The worst part is that I think what I've got right now is utter shit, and I'm going to have to rewrite the thing all over again. It's going to need major edits, if not a another rewrite...
Gah! Crippling self-doubt!
The trick is, though, to finish writing the damned thing. I can fix it up later. I must finish it first.
Bad things are a-coming, so it's going to be very depressing going from now until the end... which is also depressing.