Things have been really fucking awful this year, haven't they? What with all the hate in the world, and it manifesting in violence and senseless loss of life. Worse is the hordes of people defending the violence as if it is something to be celebrated.
Worse still, the silent majority, who feel they can do nothing, but shrug their shoulders and offer prayers. The silent majority who are so used to seeing such awful tragedies, that they've become desensitised, apathetic
I'm so lucky to have grown up in Australia, where gun laws made it possible for me to attend school without fear of losing my life on any given day. Sure, I actually don't have many happy memories of my time there, but at least I had that.
I just... I can't with the world right now.
And here's the catch. I SHOULD. We can't afford the apathy, we can't afford to hide under our blankets. We can't offered to only offer our prayers. It's not enough. We have to get up and so something.
The Lord helps those who help themselves.
But I have no idea how. I just feel so sad. I feel so helpless standing where I am, watching hate literally kill thousands of innocents, and wound millions more.
I just can't today. Not today.